10 yrs narin ako single...

3.4.22 3am

dear diary,

10 yrs narin ako single...huhuhu..mukhang need ko na talaga tanggapin sa sarili ko na napaglipasan narin ako ng panahon.. nakakatakot narin talaga magmahal now..mahirap makakita ng babaeng di ka lolokohin..mukhang wala na nga ako choice now kundi magenjoy nalang sa buhay at focus sa work as distributor ng mga electronics tools at mag ambisyon parin na sa future matawag na "soldering lord" ng calaba (cavite laguna batangas)

kaya lang naaawa ako sa mga anak ko at puro mga babae pa naman..gusto ko sila bigyan ng family atmosphere parin.. as a single father, at sa nature of work, alam ko madami akong pagkukulang as a father..i hope to rectify these shortcomings..so gustohin mo man na tanggapin nalang sa sarili ko na wala na.."Lipas nako sa panahon" .. need ko parin talaga humanap ng partner in life..

hindi to lang pra sa sarili kong happiness but pra rin sa mga anak ko.. as like i said, i want to give them like a sense of happy family home atmoshpere..its very hard to that without a woman..

so i guess, i cannot giveup in this endeavor to find a happy lovelife..kahit talagang pagod narin ako mageffort.. kahit pinagtatawanan ka narin malimit..hahaha

pro lahat naman tayo me hinahanap di ba? yung iba hinahanap is work, or pera, or mauutangan.. everyday, we nautang sa akin sa chat..di ko naman sila pinagtatawanan..i emphatized with their problem. i can help some, but not all, coz im not manny pacquiao you know...so for me, im searching for a woman that i will love and will love me too.

i just really hope that the woman i love will see my value and take care of me..

i just really hope that God will answer this open prayer..not just for me, but for my children..and also for my clients, because i can serve better our clients if my personal life is ok..because we have to admit, when your personal life is happy, you can focus more in work, and tend to be more productive..

kahit pagtawanan, kahit kinakahiya, kahit nakakapagod, kahit magastos..hahaha..i have no choice now ,tuloy parin ang paghahanap ng elusive lovelife..i can"t give up on this one..for my children"s sake..

Soldering Soldering