3.25.2022 5pm self-reflection

3.25.2022 5pm self-reflection

dear diary,

During my last visit to nuvali some few weeks ago, i tried to visit the Nuvali wakeboarding park. The guard said it is already close. Now i google it and confirmed it my self.

in their FB page, it says - "Unfortunately, Republic Wakepark in Nuvali, has also joined the long list of businesses that closed in the midst of the COVID-19 pandemic, as it announced its permanent closure.

“To our Republic Wakepark family, it is with deepest regret that we inform you that Republic Wakepark will be closing its doors permanently due to unfavorable business climate and pandemic effective April 30, 2021.”

and so do our Lagunastar Industries Company.. we will permanently close in the next few weeks to come. As our motto- Duty, Honor & Obligation. we will just need to deliver those remaining orders and then say it goodbye.

my beloved Lagunastar Industries shop will also join the long list of business that did not survive the pandemic. Though we are at the end of the pandemic. Financial losses in the 3 years 2020,2021,2022 greatly depleted our finances, due to delayed in deliveries (due to non-stop lockdowns in China), customs problems, compounded by increased overhead, and the last nail of the coffin- the unfair BIR penalties, we cannot bear the losses anymore.

I would like to thank all of our valued clients for the past 14 years as we are serving those giant companies since 2009. Before the pandemic, our soldering shop is known by the clients because we quote and deliver very fast, as we always have stocks, and the quality of our items is even better even though our pricing is also a lot lower than the competition. They are the reasons why we managed to survive in 14 years. But that was before the pandemic.

that is why i am bitter these past few months, because i cannot accept the fact na nalugi yung business.

when you are bitter for your past failures in business and personal life, you tend to hate yourself.

when you hate yourself, you tend to hate all. You hate the BIR for the unfair penalties, you hate the Customs for delaying your shipments, you hate the Philippine goverment , you hate the NPA terrorist, you hate the lockdowns in China. You hate your past bookkeeper for not warning you.

when you hate yourself, and bitter, you are very sensitive, nagiging matampuhin ba? you hate all, ,you hate even your family and friends and loveones, even though they are supporting you. wala lang because mainit ang ulo mo at pressured ka so you just hate everybody.. you even hate those cats sa harap mo na wala naman ginagawa sa yo so minsan pag lasing ka , nasisipa mo, ( im very sorry, im bad)

wala karin gana sa buhay, you lost interest in many things that excites you before, pati pag inom inom sa labas tinamad ka na, you lost interest even in women, hahaha, all your interest is in eating foods & watching netflix, then sleep.

but now, when you accept your fate, you can begin to forgive your self, & when you forgive yourself, you stop the hate, and begin your healing and try to back to the drawing board again.

So i would like to say sorry to my loveones who are at the receiving end of my bitterness the past few months , im really sorry

laking tulong nung long drive sa la union beach last week, nareset ang utak mo. nawala hate mo sa katawan, me konting bitterness nalang kasi medyo malaking amount yung nawala sa yo, nanghihinayang ka parin..pero accept mo na.

acceptance is the key, now the healing begins..

I think i really need to have a GF, para me mayakap yakap na pra yung ulo ko malamig ba lagi, pra mas mapabilis ang healing at recovery process.. hahahah