dEC 22. 2020

 

sorry sa mga di ko narereplyan s chat text..sobrang brokenhearted lang po..kaya now mas pinili ko nalang magpakasubsob s work pra makalimot..

yun pinakamamahal mong babae at iniintay intay mo ng matagal..na kasama sa lahat ng plano mo..na halos 10 checkpoint dadaanan mo makita mo lang..na naginvest ka na sobra emotionally, financially, at yung ilang taon na sacrifice hindi pra s sarili ko kundi pra s kanya pra umayos buhay nya..pra mapaligaya mo siya...na halos buwis buhay s pagdrive at effort kasi malimit aabutin k ng 10hrs drive just to see her..antok pagod ..then ilang babae ba iniwan ko pra lang makipagbalikan sa kanya?tapos bigla ka nalang ibebreak.sa konting dahilan.sobrang sakit..tagos s kaluluwa..

then malalaman mo. kaya pala..sumama na pala sa ibang lalake na sa tingin mo naman hindi deserving..ni hindi ka nga kayang buhayin non love!!! ano na nangyari sa yo? bakit siya pa??? sa mga times n struggle ka. nasubukan mo na ba siya.kung mahal ka nya???di ba hindi? ako, sa lahat ng struggle mo..., nandito ako..partner kita..kung ano meron ako..iyo narin yun..kasi partner n tayo..Never kita iniwan pag need moko..at hindi lang salita yung support ko..i walk the talk...yoko na nahihirapan ka or mamobrelma pa..Never kita iniwan kahit happy nako dati s ibang babae ng bigla k ulit paramdam..ikaw ang pinili ko..sure n sure ako mas deserving ako..di ko talaga maintindihan utak ng babae..sabi nyo gusto nyo ng maayos n buhay, ng full effort, ng seryoso, ng mamahalin kayo forever?ng me plano s buhay? pro bat ganon..di ka nga kayang buhayin nyan..ikaw pa bubuhay dyan..at iiwanan kalang din nyan for sure..hays..

Now mas pinili ko nlang magpakasubsob sa work..pra makalimot..pra at least mapagsilbihan ko nalang ng maayos mga cliente namin pra me purpose in life parin ako..kasi gustuhin ko mang matepok na..hindi pa pwede..kasi nawalan ako.ng direksyon s buhay now..kasi lahat ng plano ko s buhay kasama siya..papano na gagawin ko s bahay?sino titira dun? sa lahat? kaya rin ako nagstay s Pinas gawa mo..

masama lang po loob ko sa mundo..at confused po ako now s personal kong buhay..

so work work nalng ako..sencia na if nagrant ako s fb..

i messed my personal.life..sablay na sablay talaga s personal n buhay...at least man lang yung sa business life ko di ako sumablay

#CatrionaGray #soldering

Dec 19, 2020

Due to confidentiality agreement,

hindi ko po maflex yung mga clients namin, but i could say ,they are the giant companies in their field,, mostly global companies or part of conglomerates, though barya barya lang mga purchase orders nila sa aming small shop, sapat lang pambili ng red horse..hahaha, nakakatuwang isipin pag nagrereflect ka, na these giant companies are trusting you to serve them..so parang nakakahiya talaga pumalya sa deliveries.....

unfortunately, in all honesty, talagang sumablay kami sa deliveries sa ilang clients last March-October due to struggles sa main source (principals & raw mat) at sa struggles sa shipping & customs & courier due to pandemic.. We understand their frustrations & anger to us. Yung minsan ayaw mo na sagutin ang phone kasi hindi morin makontact yung principals mo sa abroad, so ano isasagot mo sa deliveries? Still, these clients are coming back now, trusting us again.. maraming maraming salamat po, i can safely say now, we survive 2020! We are trying our very best to speed up our deliveries, While mostly are in holiday mode now, we are working these holiday season to prepare our deliveries this Jan 2021

Maraming salamat po sa aming valued clients, Merry Christmas po & Happy New year! Mabuhay po ang manggagawang Pinoy! #soldering

Dec 17, 2020

Wala na, napaglipasan nako ng panahon, wala na talaga pagasa sa lovelife, its aka Catriona Gray or nothing! ewan ko ba, ganon kasi ako magmahal, isang babae lang..si aka Catriona Gray lang.. so i just need to accept my fate & just devote my remaining 20-40 years on earth sa pagbebenta ng soldering, anti-static, calipers, torque bits at microscopes pra makahelp sa industrialization ng Pinas pra umunlad naman tayo!... 

kaso sayang naman ang DNA genes ko if hindi ko maipapasa..siguro makapunta nalang ng Russia pra makagawa kahit 1 baby man lang..hehehe #soldering #catrionagray

 

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dec 17 mema

nite person tlaga ako..i prefer lumabas ng 11pm to 3am to eat & chill outside..kasi tahimik, no traffic, no problem sa parking..stress free environment..

Dec 16, 2020 Thanx Google!

 

 Thanx Google!!! nakasweldo rin ng 4,700 pesos after 5 years! hahaha..so sweldo ko s blog ko is nasa 1K per year...salamat sa taga northern macedonia kung sino ka man na nagbabasa ng online diary ko.. sarap sa feeling .hehehe

#ADSENSE 

 

Dec17, 2020

 ANYAREE??? ?4 days lang ako nadepressed at kain tulog laro compu..from 182lb, 192 lb nako now! huhuhu #fatman #lakityan ANYARE?????

Dec 15, 2020 Mema

To myself, thinking out loud= when my soldering & anti-static principals/bosses from Indonesia, China, and Britain found out that im annulled with my exwife, and im a bachelor now..they have become deeply concerned..

As i summarize their business & personal advise, The advises seem to be all the same, and they "strongly suggest" to me to- Go to the countryside & find a young, fertile, Hardworking & energetic Lady to marry that will help you level up the business..With special emphasis in YOUNG as it will bring energy to me thus bringing more.energy to the business.

It syncs with the advise of some trusted friends during our drinking sessions..but not in sync with the advise of my loving mother who wants a matured woman for me..

This "strong suggestion" from my soldering Lords seems to like a Memo to me to keep my job as a soldering agent..and as a loyal soldier i should heed it, in order to keep their trust & confidence i me..in order to keep my job & pay my bills..hahaha

As they said, most of the girls in the countrysides are honest, loyal, and are used in hardwork..Not like young girls in the city who are mostly spoiled entitled disloyal brats who only wants to party party and just after your money..hahaha...A young fertile hardworking wife will help bring long term stability & growth in the business, can easily give you a son that will continue the business when you grow old..Also most importantly, she will carry your financial duties in case you get sick or have an açcident (oh pls not again, ,hahaha), or just feeling lazy..hehehe

Now i am thinking to myself, where should i go now to find this Young Provincial girl to be my future wife & business partner in order to please my bosses??? shall i go to Bicol? Quezon Province? Isabela? #findingnewwife #TheSearchIsOn #soldering #esdsafe

𝐄𝐥𝐡𝐚 𝐍𝐲𝐦𝐩𝐡𝐚 @ Long Beach, Arnedo, Bolinao, Pangasinan

Ms. 𝐄𝐥𝐡𝐚 𝐍𝐲𝐦𝐩𝐡𝐚

photos taken from her official IG=  elhamaenymphaofficial

 

Dec 14, 2020 Mema

 

panay bash ni Kiko Pangilinan ke Gen Sinas s mananita..tagal n un at iilan lang yun..eh yung rally sa UP Diliman at nakaraang rally sa Manila me pabanner banner pa ng mga Sisonites..ni hindi mabash..eh hundreds yun? panay kayo bash sa mga police at militar., pero sa oras ng kagipitan, at oras ng peligro or aksidente or me masasamang tao..sino ba tatawagan natin para saklolohan tayo? mga NPA ba matatawagan natin para irescue tayo??? ito bang mga akibista kuno at sina renato reyes (magkano po ba bigayan now..beke nemen comrade..hahaha) at sina Elagro ( hot siya by the way..hehehe), matatawagan ba natin yan pra ihelp tayo?

 

kaya di kayo manalo sa election puro kayo politika..

 

ang point eh irespeto natin ng medyo mas mataas na antas ang kapulisan at militar natin dahil sa oras de peligro sila yung matatawagan mo sa telepono at ready sila magbubuwis ng buhay para sa atin.. mga NPA ba matatawagan mo pag ninanakawan na bahay mo?? #respect

fEELING rich sa Siling Labuyo! hahaha

 

mukhang based sa news..mukhang pag meron ka nito..considered k ng rich..hahaha..1k na ba ulit ang kilo or 800php/kg? hahaha #sili #SiliChallenge #solderingiron #feelingrich

Dec 9 ,2020 reflection

 Now, i made peace with my Creator, & forgive & made peace with myself..i accept my fate & just embrace this loneliness..if God will answer my prayers of getting a loving wife in the future..i will be happy, but if not, I will just accept & be happy too..just be silent in the things that really dont matter..just Adapt for things that matter, but you dont have control..just work work work & be happy , and just accept whatever destiny this soldering brings.., Fullfill my obligations, Just live simply , and do the right things in the remaining 20-40 yrs left in my life..

Ms. Jessie Mendiola @ Amanpulo

photos taken from :
https://www.instagram.com/senorita_jessy/

 

 

Dec 3, 2020 Reflection, mema lang

Tanong ko lang sa sarili ko, me bansa na bang umunlad na me insurgency problem like CPP NPA MAkabayan kuno dto s atin or like FARC sa Colombia? sa pagka adik ko s pagbabasa ng history wala pako nabasang bansa na umunlad na me insurgency problem...so i therefore conclude, wala ng pagasa tong bansa nato umunlad kasi mismong mga senador na nagsasabi forever na daw yan at hindi na priority isolve. kasi wala na talaga.. multi biillion pesos na business empire na yang insurgency problem. mismong mga nasa senado, partylist congressman, governor,pati mga nakaupo sa minamahal kong University of the Philippines iembrace nalang daw at part ng critical thinking.

it critical thinker ka talaga. me bansa na bang umunlad na me insurgency? now pls forgive me kung bakit hangang hanga ako ke Presidente Duterte. prang siya lang ang presidente na me bayag talaga. direkta magsalita, let us call an apple an apple, let us call santol as santol. if it looks like a santol, it taste like santol, it smells like santol, it is genetically identified as santol..therefore it is santol... no matter how you deny or hide it, or give it "front" name..it is santol...Hindi katulad ng mga senador at goveror na pamacho kuno pero pag usapin n ng mga Npa, takot na magcomment. uanawain nalang daw yung mga pumapatay ng mga sundalo at police natin.. considering si senator ay former police chief.. no wonder hanggang dito nalang tayo..

galit na galit kayo sa China at gusto nyo gerahin ni Duterte ang China eh sa sarili nating bayan, me isang grupo na gusto pabagsakin ang gobyero. 50 yrs n yata to gusto pabagsakin ang gobyerno. unawain nalang daw sila at me pinaglalaban daw.

matindi paghanga ko sa mga bansang USA, UK, Germany, Japan , Russia, at kahit s bansang China na communista. nakadalaw nako sa China at babalik at babalik ako dun. impressed ako sa mga technology na nakita ko dun. sa pagkaalam ko wala sa mga bansang mauunlad nato ang me insurgency problem. tayo 50 yrs na meron at forever n daw yan as implicitly implied ng isang senador.. forever n daw to so hindi n daw dapat ipriority isolve.. Dickhead ka talaga senator. hehehe

so tanong ko lang sa sarili ko? me bansa na bang umunlad na me insureccion? hanggang dito nalang ba talaga ang Pilipinas? or shall i say ako nalang mag adjust ? at hello canada?

wish ko lang, pagbigyan naman natin ang bansa natin na umunlad dahil kahit saan tayo mapadpad e Filipino parin tayo at isa lang ang bansa natin ang Pilipinas. sanay magkaisa na tayo at wag na tayo pauto sa mga matatanda dyan s netherlands na party party lang..habang tayo nag aaway away dto sa Pinas...magkaisa na tayo bilang isang bansa!

pro ako sa sarili ko ay hindi na bumabata. so prang sa sarili ko. naiisip ko, wala na talagang pagasa umunlad tong Pilipinas.. kasi again back to the 1st question ko sa sarili ko..so ang sa akin ay resignation, acceptance na tayo ay hanggang dito nalang...

ito na ang last na mag thinking out loud ako or magcomment ng tungkol sa insurgency problem natin. kasi sino ba naman ako? ako ay isang hamak na single father lang na ni hindi magkajowa jowa ng matino. so bago ko isipin tong problema ng sa Npa at sa mga Rally ng rally ng mga tibak sa UP

eh problemahin ko muna pano ako magkaka Girlfriend ng me makayakap naman ako at me magluto naman dto sa bahay. hahaha. so resigned nako sa usapin nyan. iaacept ko nalng n nandyan na sila forever at wala ng pagasa pa tong bansa nato. i just hope sa future.. me isang katulad ulit ni DU30 na magiging presidente na me bayag na kaya wakasan tong 50 yr old problem nato ng bansang Pilipinas to prove me wrong. at masabi ko. me pagasa pa tong minamahal kong bayan ko. #soldering #acceptance #resignation

soldering

dec 1, 2020 mema

 if i can forgive other people, i should also forgive myself from my mistakes in life.. if i can be kind to others..i should be kind to myself also.. Life goes on.. So self, i forgive you! Huwag mo nlang ulitin at ayusin mo na dapat ayusin at ikaw na magadjust sa traffic sa SLEX, ikaw na mag-adjust sa mga lockdown lockdown,, ikaw na mag-adjust sa sobrang daming holiday ng gobyerno,, ikaw na mag-adjust sa red tape sa public at private institution na nilalakaran mo..gumising ka ng maaga para kahit 4 oras ang trapik sa SLEX ay makarating ka parin sa pupuntahan mo..maghire ka ng additional na tao pra me force multiplier ka..nagawa mo na dapat gawin, nakatulong ka pa.. mauubos lang oras mo sa paghuhugas ng pinggan! hahaha #soldering

 

 

 

Nov 19, 2020

 Mahal ko ang aking beloved Alma Mater- UPLB.. dyan ako nag-aral ng halos libre..halos walang bayad! Huwag sana natin siyang hayaan sirain ng mga iilang mga Gullible na mga tibak na akala mo kung sinong magagaling, e ni hindi nga pumasa pasa ng Math 11 karamihan sa mga mahilig dyan magrally rally.. puro poetic poetic struggle..style ng mga ulol nyan, kahit sino pa presidente dyan, ayaw nila! kahit pa si Madam Leni Robredo umupo dyan, magrarally at magrally parin mga yan dahil mga uto-uto nga! hahaha. Ako babagsakin din sa UP. pero tong mga to, Akala mo mga kung sinong pagkagaling galing at pagkatalitalino, Ipasa nyo muna Math 11 at Stat1 bago kayo magrally, mga ulol! sayang Tax ko sa nyo.. Mabuhay ang University of the Philippines! at Mabuhay ang Pilipinas! #UniversityOfThePhilippines

Nov 17, 2020

Good morning universe! I decided now to stop posting my miserable life on fb as a sign of respect to other people, as obviously more people now are living more miserable than i am..

As my titanic problem in life now is just related to being lonely, without a woman in my bed, having no partner in life, as finding a new stable lovelife seems to be like a very hard differential problem that i am am trying to solve for the past 7 years..Daig pa Math 38 sa hirap..hahaha.. for a man like me, having a woman in my life seems to be the answer for all of my miseries & will save me from drowning in the vast sea of loneliness..

Seeing that more people are living more miserable than i am brings no happiness to me.. As i hope to be unchained from this miserable lonely life of my own, i fervently wish that all people affected by the pandemic & floodings can get back on their feet..

I figured that i am still blessed. I still have many roofs above my head that are flood-free, still financially secured to put foods on the tables.. still healthy to do the work as demanded by our clients & principals.. My love ones are all healthy, for these, i am grateful to our Lord..

I just hope & pray, that our God will hear my prayers..so at least, there is one less miserable man on the world, & its gonna be fine..

#miserable #CatrionaGray #soldering

Ms Jessy Mendiola - "Bikini at home"

 

  photos taken from :
https://www.instagram.com/senorita_jessy/

 

Unleash the Beast Calvin Abueva

  kaya pala hanggat makakaya, pipigilan ng lintek na kume (sa pressure ng nakakataas, conspiracy theory ng mga fans..hahaha) yang pagbabalik ni the Abueva the beast! kung hindi pa magagalit ng husto mga fans sa social media..congrats the beast! pro salamat parin kume at salamat pba, in this time of pandemic & baha, malaking bagay para sa mga kalalakihan na stressed sa work na me napapanood kahit papano na basketball..yung mental health ba, importante siya..salamat po.. #unleashthebeast #pba #pbabubble

nov 8 ,2020 mema- thank you sa mga friends

 

To be honest and frank, i really appreciate those friends/kakilala na nag-eeffort na retuhan/help ako na magkalovelife-partner in life...because this is my main problem the past 7 years -finding a life partner..deep in my mind..i am thinking, this man/woman is a true friend..and these are the people i should keep in touch..for good or for worst time..

Problema sa akin, ang panget panget ko, pero ang taas ng standards ko. hahaha. pro im a small scale businessman, having a suitable partner is a crucial element of my success or failure..so i should be choosy on whom to love.. as there are many people who depends on me..

Also, Lovelife is a big investment. You will spend a lot of time, money & emotions to it.. you need to work hard to solder those connections and just like any investments, there is a probability of Losing.. ..so better spend your hard-earned money & limited time in a woman you truly adore & like.. in a beautiful woman that will make you happy, hahaha ! so even if you lose, at least you will cherish those happy times..

But after all of those painful losses in my past "investments" the past 7 years.. i now listen to my wiser friends & learned from my own mistakes.. I now need to magnify & inspect those red flags to prevent another loss that truly hurts your even to your inner soul. i grew tired of losing..i am tired of losing.. so I intend to win this time now in 2021..

But ke Bet ko or hindi ko Bet yung nireto sa akin., it doesn't matter, its the effort that counts to me.. salamat po mga friends! #memalang #lovewins #CatrionaGray #soldering #microscope

 

photo taken by: Marga (Angelica)